While the Bridegroom is Away~ the season of delay

 Jesus answered, “How can the guests of the bridegroom mourn while he is with them? The time will come when the bridegroom will be taken from them; then they will fast (Mt. 9:15)." Jesus is saying here that there is coming a day when I will be taken from you. And in this day you will mourn, long, ache, groan, and even fast for Me to return! We are in this day. We are living in this period of delay. What are you doing in this period of delay? I find myself thinking about this a lot these days because this longing, this ache is becoming weighty. My insides seem to be so stirred and with a stirring I'm not quite used to. So, in my meditation and asking Jesus what to do with this I'm saying to Him,"At times God the ache is hard to bear. I almost want to avoid your presence because it shakes my insides so much. I know God that doesn't make sense haaa, I know, but help me understand! Help me understand what I'm feeling." And it's as if He answers to me with, " Do not grow weary in the weightiness and appease this groan, but remain. It is right to want to be with Me where I am. It is also my prayer. Remember, ' Father I desire..(Jn.17:24)?' Laura, your desire is an echo and a participating with Me in My desire." So why this longing; this aching? Simple. Because He is not here. You see, you cannot know Him and not deeply miss Him. The longing flows out of knowing Him. Do you ache for Him as He does for you? Does your Spirit cry COME?! 
I choose to remain in and embrace this ache(longing,mourning). His desire is that His Bride long for Him; that His friends mourn and fast for Him. He will not come until the Bride erupts with this groan, "...COME (Rev. 22:17)!" I want to meet His desire.
It's good to understand the heart of our Bridegroom and desire what He desires. What a privilege? Long for Him! The Spirit and the Bride say Come!

"Come away with Me, Come away with Me"... whispers I love and long to hear. Whispers that add to, create and intensify the ache within my heart to REALLY know Him; to really know what His love is like. It was these first whispers from His mouth I ever heard that began this journey of love that will last for Eternity! This One, Jesus, is the voice that whispers these words that create longing & desire for more and more of His love.
A love that is as vast as the ocean, so deep, so wide and so STRONG, that nothing can separate me from it(Romans 8:38)! O the wonder that this Love desires me and desires you so fiercely that even death could not stop it! His love gets me every time and how could I ever say No! So, even in my weakness, my sadness, my laziness, disappointments, and my longings, my heart cries, "Kiss me with the kisses of Your mouth- for Your LOVE is better than wine(SOS 2:2)." Your love sustains me. I never want this ache to go away! I pray I always desire You Jesus as my ONE THING!