Jesus answered, “How can the guests of the bridegroom mourn while he is with them? The time will come when the bridegroom will be taken from them; then they will fast (Mt. 9:15)." Jesus is saying here that there is coming a day when I will be taken from you. And in this day you will mourn, long, ache, groan, and even fast for Me to return! We are in this day. We are living in this period of delay. What are you doing in this period of delay? I find myself thinking about this a lot these days because this longing, this ache is becoming weighty. My insides seem to be so stirred and with a stirring I'm not quite used to. So, in my meditation and asking Jesus what to do with this I'm saying to Him,"At times God the ache is hard to bear. I almost want to avoid your presence because it shakes my insides so much. I know God that doesn't make sense haaa, I know, but help me understand! Help me understand what I'm feeling." And it's as if He answers to me with, " Do not grow weary in the weightiness and appease this groan, but remain. It is right to want to be with Me where I am. It is also my prayer. Remember, ' Father I desire..(Jn.17:24)?' Laura, your desire is an echo and a participating with Me in My desire." So why this longing; this aching? Simple. Because He is not here. You see, you cannot know Him and not deeply miss Him. The longing flows out of knowing Him. Do you ache for Him as He does for you? Does your Spirit cry COME?!
I choose to remain in and embrace this ache(longing,mourning). His desire is that His Bride long for Him; that His friends mourn and fast for Him. He will not come until the Bride erupts with this groan, "...COME (Rev. 22:17)!" I want to meet His desire.
It's good to understand the heart of our Bridegroom and desire what He desires. What a privilege? Long for Him! The Spirit and the Bride say Come!
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